I Am Already Experiencing Withdrawal Symptoms

 

I hate to admit it, but I am a control freak. This crazy life requires someone to be! That is the excuse that I keep telling myself at least. But today is that day that I HAVE to give it up.

And I am having SERIOUS anxiety issues over it! I can feel the blood flowing through my veins. I can feel the adrenaline flowing. I can feel the out of control feeling when chaos  is ensuing.

I feel out of control.

And. I. Don’t. Like. It!

I have been the one to control the schedules of this family for at least the last 10 years. I have been the one to decide who goes where. I have been the one to schedule appointments and make sure everyone is at the right place at the right time.

Today that is being taken away from me.

Today I leave the control behind.

Today I have to fully depend on DH.

Today I have to trust DH to do what I do.

Today I have to trust everyone.

I. DON’T. LIKE. IT!

I have tried to maintain some control. I have made lists and charts. I have assigned duties. I have a 4x5 bulletin board on the wall with a calendar and each individual child a space with post it note reminders!

 

And I have my cell to call home….

Aggghhh. 

The good news is…I get to start my new job on Monday morning! Totally excited about that!