Yep, I know it.

I have said it a couple of times before. But after reading a thread on a foster parent board, it really hit me this time. We are done fostering. We are really done.

So you can "Stick a Fork in Me, I'm Done!!"

I feel no desire to get another placement. It just isn't there anymore.
We have completed our family. Eight IS enough....LOL.

I am done with worrying. I am done with the whole crazy scheduling. I am done with the never ending doctor's appointments. I am done with all the therapy appointments...well we still have some of those...but still. I am done worrying about how clean my house is for the "drop ins". I am done with the lies that CW's have to tell so that they can place a child who needs a theraputic setting because the state would rather pay bonuses instead of funding for these children. I am done with getting the children to a place where they are disciplined and after a visit, they are out of control all over again. I am done worrying about if I am a "good enough" parent to parent these hurt children. I am done with court dates that get rescheduled and no one notifies me. I am done with missed visitation schedules...come one people! You can't come visit your kids for 1 hour a week?! I am done with the LICE...oh my gosh...I am SO DONE WITH THE LICE!!!

Recently I was able to visit several of our former foster children for various reasons. While I may not like what I see, the kids are getting their needs met. I am not their parent...I have my "own" to care for...I need to let go.
I didn't think I could do it. But I have. I'm done.

Now the question is...is DH done? LOL!

Don't get me wrong...I love each and everyone of "my" kids. Each one holds a piece of my heart. I will always be there. But I know that I don't need to be.