He Lifts Me Up!

There is a song that is running through my head, but for the life of me, I can not think of what it is! But it says He Lifts Me Up!

And yes He does!

I was feeling very discouraged today. I don't even know why. But I have been in a serious funk lately. I have a sneaking suspicion that I suffer from depression, but I really don't have time for that...LOL.

Anyway. I received an email with good news...I was selected to interview for a job that I have been wanting for for about FOUR YEARS now. I have been working my butt off to complete my degree and $50,000 later with student debts, I was getting a little anxious about not finding a job. I was happy! Yay me!

So I sent the return email saying HECK YEH! along with my contact info. I was s'rsly expecting a return email the next day. Well, I have "worked" for this organization for the last six years...that should have told me that I wouldn't be getting a return anything within 24hrs.

But it came today.

A day that I really needed it!

My day didn't start out all that good. I ended up having "words" with both Miss Priss and Lil Miss this morning for OUTRIGHT DISOBEDIENCE! I have little patience for those who BLATANTLY disobey. Like seriously...right in front of me without batting an eye...Like I am stupid or something.

For example, one child walks right passed me, opens the frig and gets out a bag of candy and sticks it into her book bag. "UMMM HELLO!" I had just said, "Over my dead body will any child of mine take a bag of candy to school for snack!" Well, not in those exact words...but pretty darn clear as that!!!

When I ask what she is doing it is like one of those cartoons where the sweet faced kid looks at you with a blank expression and "blink, blink". Like they have no idea what you are talking about.

Come on already!

Then we have therapy. Two at a time with different therapists. As I get out of my van...here comes one therapist out the door. I am like, "Our appointment is here today." SHE SCHEDULED IT! I WATCHED HER...This is our second appointment. The first one was suppose to be at our house and she DIDN'T come...I had to call and ask where she was.

So then she says she needs to get something to drink. Okay...she didn't come back for awhile. By then, I was in another session with the other child. I really like this therapist. I have worked with her a lot before. But it was hilarious watching her reaction to Lil Miss.

Finally the other one comes back and she tells Lil Miss that we have some things to work on. That was a huge laugh...all Lil Miss kept telling her was "I want candy" and spinning around in a chair.

Basically I learned a visual technique that I can use to calm myself when I am upset.

1. Say a word that calms me.
2. Sing a song.


Yep...and DH isn't home yet either...